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the luge of life
well, firstly would like to apologise to my blog and all readers for the late late update. i didn't abandon you all just that i'm a bit busy at the moment. so, being busy, i think that one thing is that adversely affected is the rest that i've been receiving.
its really damn tiring nowadays. i've been surviving not to worry.
but on the bright side, its pretty interesting. been coming across situations that i think that i would least expect that would occur to me.
it's rather a learning point for me where i really discover myself. but ultimately, i'm missing everyone so so much. sighs. hope to meet everyone soon.
i think that's all i can say for now.
Have You Ever?
well....its wayy too long that i haven't updated this very blog of mine..sorry blog. =(
anyways, its just a lot of happenings and i'm rather busy nowadays which results in me not being able to update this very site. sighs.
hmm..have you guys ever sit down and really reflect on life on its own? and maybe how far have we come in our lives? the people? the friendships formed? the experiences? the maturity of our very self?
well yeap i had one of those moments like not too long ago which totally prevented me from sleeping till like about 4 am. i can say that big brother gave me that wake up call that i seriously need from all the happenings at home where mum and dad argued and where family just wasn't really there to support you and guide you when you grow up.sighs.
thanks big brother!
i wanna create a deja vu just for you with my bare hands
How i wished that i could create a deja vu just for this particular person. and just romanticize about the whole dream.Well i must say, its really hard for me to pen down my thoughts nowadays. so what i'm gonna day first is to pen down what happened today!
I got Killed today (RIP Shawn.) haha. seriously the math killed me indefinitely. Met up with Shahizan, Syahida and Rasydan in the morning just to get a lil familiarizing with our "good friend" math, which in return for our short friendship, it killed me.
sighs. I studied after that over at woodylands civic centre. i know. far from my place. but yea. munched at macs there and headed to the library soon after to do some studying. managed to study abit till all distractions brake loose and Shah and myself were trying to test Dan about Engineering Design
been not myself lately. been more talkative(yep more talkative) hmm...too much in my mind luh. i want to let all the emotions out bit by bit. but the thing is that it piles up more and more cause i just can't find space to breathe. its a hell of a rollercoaster ride i tell ya.
something hit me in the train. not physically but a thought. it was, how great would it be if i can create a deja vu for her. just specifically for her. so that i can put the pieces together and ensure that she enjoys herself around me. the thing is that she's playing mind games with me and i'm like ugh. why so.
upcoming events for now is that! 12th, W35B we're going out babes and hunks! woots! but i would like to apologise to y'all! cause i won't be staying over. and and. i'm sorry for any mistakes i've done and this time tell me so that i can correct me self!
concurrent mixed of emotional waves.
hey y'all.
sorry for not updating for like....let's see..ages? haha. been tied up with lots of stuffs! haha. ouh ouh! got good news for y'all! i'm gonna start the link section. like next week hahaha... kidding...maybe tomorrow or something. -.- (shawn, you gotta be NOT so fickle-minded)
OKAY! time for updates.
The first thing on my mind now is how much i'm beginning to miss W35B but what to do? move on. sighs. The joy, the warm family like feeling amongst one another and the friendships formed. from calling one another friends to calling one another brothers or sisters or even dar dar and darling and sayangs haha( thanks peeps for the great awesome time and creating that chapter for my life. you'll be apart of my life. W15H is not forgotten too =]) another chapter ends, a new chapter begins.
The next thing is somewhat frustrating. Its my UTs. might be wondering what is UT? UT is another term in my school's lingo which actually equates to EXAMS. yeap. complicated eh? not really when you got used to it hahaha..its mathematics and physics that's frustrating. people around me have others to teach them(i.e. BFs, GFs, BFFs, Parents) me? haha. i don't know.
i know that its a little long. but well its a post that updates everything.
Oh. i think i am really falling into the love trap again. should i be happy or should i be sad? not for me to decide right?
the thing is that the more that i wait the more that i fall in deeper. i really don't know what to do. i want to give up but i just couldn't cause i realize that the love has sunk in deep. sighs. i feel like its a endless chase but...
anyways. yeap i gotta go compile my notes and create something for easier reference.
See y'all someday!
Signing out!
SHAWN-o-holic-G-tastic
where'd you go?
officially, i'm missing someone. haha..that's rare. usually is the "okay,drop it, and leave" me. the mentality that i developed when i was going through some troubles of my own. But, all seems to have changed now.
Today, wasn't really in the mood to do anything. I was like more of a zombified self that is waiting for the bed that is constantly calling to me just to lay on it and enter that very dream world of mine where everything probably goes your way(unless that it is a nightmare)
I was more of a pugnacious and cranky self onlt thing is that i don't show it to the friends that i care for. Cause i don't want to develop any worries for them and i don't want to bring their moods down.
More and more special individuals(*raise eyebrowns* what a cool way to call people..hahahhahaha) are falling sick...sighs...TAKE CARE PEOPLE!. updating this at coffeebean and rushing through this post due to the fact that my battery is running low and my mind is overflowing with thoughts. sighs...been thinking too much recently....gotta stop and relax SHAWN!!!hahahha...will update again later tonight where i put my thoughts in check(S.L.A.P eh?).
TTFN!
somewhere over the well of reality.
hey all you peeps out there.
nothing much today that's worth mentioning. i think that today it was a time where reality really hits and hits me hard. The whole day was nothing but a period of sudden realization time and time again. it happened more than once. once was during the trip to school where the mrt train was packed and all. The funny thing is that it is filled with couples. to be frank, i definitely felt left out.
why left out? well maybe that's because of my 18 going 19 years of being a lonely soul that has no one special to share memories with. what did i do to counter the situation? blasted my music and stared off at the surroundings outside the window like a rolling roll of film playing. So i thought okay this is just gon continue for that few more stops towards Jurong East.
Well guess what, it happened another time when i was heading back again but this time someone just popped in my mind. and i realised that this special someone is someone that has a special place in my mind,heart and soul.
Yep, i might be in love. maybe. but the irony is that i'm in love with someone that i never really seen and talk to physically before. The feeling i should say grows day by day. what am i to do? i really want this to turn into something but the thing is that i am unsure of what to do next. i'm so afraid that i make the wrong moves. all i do now, i can say, is that i just took care of this person like my other half already. doing the basics the reminders. i really hope that this person notices. or should i just tell this person about my blog?
anyways, if you're reading this at the time that i posted, it also notes that you should most probably head to bed soon. cause its pretty late and its gonna be tiring if you're gonna continue to do something after reading.
Giorno per giorno, penso che i miei sentimenti più forti e più forte verso di te.
signing off!
the guy that is starting something new,
Shawn
you're the one that i want =]]
its been a long while. i think most of missed me haha...i sounded so thick skin saying that..but not to worry i'll feel honored if you do feel that way.
Well. things in school have been going smoothly. nothing much to update about schoolwork besides that UT2 is over and literally done with and up comes the next obstacle which is UT3. Some might be asking what the heck is UT. Well, UT is in full Understanding Test or in other words, common tests. where it is inclusive in your GPA.
I think everything goes on smoothly. I think. period.
I begin to question myself nowadays. question about how much have i changed since i was young and i realized that i have changed a whole lot. literally. Being a crybaby in the past to being a quite daring guy now. from being an introvert in the past to quite a comedian now. Things have changed. definitely. I mean try taking some time off and think about the changes that you went through and each hurdle that you completed.
One thing that hit me when i was 'reflecting' was cupid's arrows. i just realize that cupid has been avoiding me and i think now the cupid is giving a route to follow leading me to somewhere. somewhere that i never really discovered before, after getting cheated more than once. I really hope that this path that cupid set is someone that is of good conscience and i believe that this some one is. i just got no guts to ask it out.
lonely as can be like the image, sitting by the seaside waiting for that special one to sit beside me and jot down the happy times and the lessons learnt together and the path that we've walked together. it seems like a long shot but i'm still keeping the hope alive after considering myself to go through 18 years of singlehood. ask me to explain to you if you want.
To monster: the more i spend time with you, the more i feel that you're that piece of puzzle. eager to know you more and going on together with so many unexplored territories and helping one another grow to our best. i really hope that you're reading this little piece of my ____(fill in the blank) and hope that you'll hear me one day. I never want to be friends with you. I want to develop something that is MORE than that of friends.
i think with that note, we'll just stop right here and go head to the different paths that we are suppose to head. that's all for now.
merci de lecture. Monster, Je t'aime de plus en plus.
the art of cupid's arrows
hello all,
not been putting in my french lines for a reason. its cause i'm too busy now. yep! i'm busy with Sharity Gift Box.
If you guys don't know what is it, come talk to me and i'll tell you all about it. i was thinking and thinking when i was at the Headquarters about the actions i did and what did i get in return. Everything i do is somewhat wrong in the system so now, i'm going, "you call the shots, primer" and one thing that is been stuck on my mind is someone.
I don't know why, the cupid is like constantly aiming on me and giving me heartbreaks. sighs. ugh totally hate it! freaking tired now.
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